My condolences to you.
I seldom reply to these type posts, they don't know me from Adam and no words I say will console them. But....
Two weeks ago I lost a life long friend and it has been very tough on me. As I poured over old photos to find those with him and I, it chronicled our lives over the years. From pics of us as young handsome guys to older with grayer hair and larger middles.
It took until a couple days ago to finally write a memorial to him on our high school website that I maintain. I told of things we did together, from riding to high school together to being in the same PE class in college, to working on cars together.
I posted a half dozen pics showing good times in our lives. I probably have cried more the last two weeks than I have the last ten years.
Sometimes life is not fair, but we must move on with our lives. That does not make it easier.
Thanks for listening. Very sorry for hijacking this thread.
What you can carry is all you need for an emergency situation. The rest you can pick up off the dead and dying if it gets that bad.